Sunday, December 19, 2010


This may be the last post from this site, yet to be determined.
Hubby, in his infinite, lazy wisdom, instead of pushing a simple button on his own computer to turn it on, used mine when setting up a gmail account for his brother. Sounds innocent enough, EXCEPT it piggy backed my account to his... and after much clicking and before I realized it, I had reset the password for my brother in laws email account. Now, from what I understand, he rarely checks his email unless his girlfriend does it for him. If she should check it, and not be able to access it, they may reset the password again, and I may lose the ability to come back on here, and will have to set up a different one, which I really don't want to do.

I hate change, and I hate when change is wrongly forced on me, so with that, if I can't reach him to let him know what's up and I can't get in here anymore, I bit you adeu for now, only hoping this mess will get cleared up and I can remain ME...

signing off for now, possibly forever from this particular one,

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

So much to be thankful for...

This is the time of year when we think of all we have,
those we love,
things that really matter beyond the day to day grind.
Some of the things we are thankful for are 'the usual' -
That's so generic, really. What is at the heart of what and why we are truly thankful?

I am thankful for wonderful in-laws that aren't perfect, and have shown me that all families can be dysfunctional to some degree but they're still good.
I'm thankful for my mother in law, who has always been a warm, loving and unconditionally caring person, a huge part of why I stuck around when Rob was in his own world. Yes, dear, I hung around for your mother :)
I'm thankful for my father in law, who was a very scary man for the 1st year we dated,
but after that was the best father figure I've ever had.
He made me feel loved, safe, accepted, even if he didn't always 'get' me.
I miss him so much.
I'm thankful for my brother and sisters in law, the only brothers I have.
It's a nice extended family, who isn't perfect but still cares about each other.
and oh my gosh, Sherry is the absolute best sister in law in the world, she is almost like a mini-me of my mother in law, a rare and amazing thing to be cherished.

I'm thankful for my family, even if we drive each other crazy :)
My mom... that's a loaded one LOL!
She can make us crazy but it's something I aspire to be to my own kids, so it's all good.
Any time you can start a sentence with "MY mom...", and to be able to get your own kids to start sentences out that way, good stuff!!!
Mom has a way to push Rob in a way I can't and he handles her better than I would expect.
I think she's really helped him mature in ways others couldn't.
My sisters, we have had alot of fun together now that's we're all grown, the age difference growing up made it more difficult, as they were 11 months apart and I was 7 and 8 years older.
It's nice having sisters that you can relate to, encourage and laugh with over and over.

I'm strangely thankful to my 1st boyfriend for showing me it can be safe to trust and care about someone and let them care about you. He bridged the gaping hole my father left, where I felt I could never trust anyone or allow myself to open up and love and be loved. Without that bridge, I'm fairly sure I wouldn't be married today,
he showed me there really ARE good guys still out there.

I'm oddly thankful for even the horrible things that have happened in life that have helped mold me and make me who I am. Sure, I still have hurts but out of hurts come strengths we didn't know we had or could have. Convictions that we have strong and valid reasons for, even if other people don't understand.

Life is complicated, full to overflowing with the good, the bad and the ugly.
Without the bad and the ugly, could we really appreciate the truly good as much?

What are you thankful for?
What has helped shape who you are?

Friday, November 12, 2010


Wow, this seems to be a twice a year thing, oh dear diary,
do you even remember me???

I saw this and it was perfect. I was actually browsing pretty, elegant or just close renditions of what our dinner table for Thanksgiving would look like and I find this. Sure says it all , doesn't it??

Oh the memories of family gatherings, should give you the warm fuzzies,
until family...
for years, I had to make actual seating charts to keep those that didn't like each other apart, usually due to the fact one likes the other while that other one can't stand the 1st.. oh the drama...
and 'so-in-so' makes 'what's-her-name' angry,
this one offended that one, and on and on and on it goes...
my great aunt adored my grandma and for a reason nobody has ever known,
grandma despised the great aunt, so they couldn't even sit so one could see the other or grandmas blood would curdle... really people??
There are valid reasons sometimes, but it's a holiday, put it aside for the day and fake it like everybody else, seriously!!!

For years I thought my in-laws were the ideal functional family.
Then over the years the subtleties are noticeable... geez, is ANYBODY function in ANY family?? somebody give me some hope here!
This one doesn't like that one, this one irritates the other one,
years ago this one did something to that one, and it's not a forgiving bunch! Decades can pass between the offense and when they can be in the same room and one not still be seething, wow, I think all families are a mess.
Can anybody convince me otherwise??

This is the holiday to kick off the big couple month holiday season.
I 'DO' love Thanksgiving.
I 'do' it every other year now.
I work the other 'other' Thanksgivings and
cook for my side of the family the other years,
when my sister from Indiana comes to town.
I look forward to it, love cooking for it, and just hanging out and
just being together.
Even on bad years, we enjoy being together.
On rough years, we at least can fake it and appear like normal people :)

Then after Thanksgiving, the 'fun' begins, but that's for the next blog,
which will be soon, I promise, so much more to get out of my system

Saturday, June 5, 2010

wow, missing in action since November??

Wow, I can hardly believe it's been since November since I last updated this.
So much has gone on, I don't know where to start...
Aging can be fun but at times just sucks rocks.
Hormones are evil. Just when things are going really well, the hormones get all wacked out and make me in such a funk I have no motivation and just feel down and I am NOT a down person :(
At least realizing it's a hormone thing helps but it still bites.
Just a couple weeks ago they started re-doing our subdivision. This was taken by Shanna, as the guy was having way too much fun popping wheelies while working. They have one more layer to put on before it's all done, no idea when that will be.
Work is going ok. Mostly good but Wednesday was a rotten, awful, terrible, very bad day.
I started it out by opening, which is fine but when we opened at 5,within 5 minutes I became COVERED in milk/shake mix from neck to toes... yes and with an audience... I was sticky, wet, gross and limited... it took forever to get that mess AND me cleaned up, we were kinda busy to boot...I had to call and wake up Shanna to come bring me a new set of clothes. I felt like I was walking in paste...
then the phone rings and it's a guy complaining and talking down to me like I'm an idiot.
All this over a single piece of cheese. A single piece of cheese set this guy off and ruined his day?
Really??? a piece of cheese?? I'm COVERED in shake mix and a piece of cheese turns this guy nuts. WOW... at 1st I felt completely beat on and defeated, then it was pretty funny. I stood there all wet, sticky and gross and I'm hearing an end-of-the-world recount over how a piece of cheese made this guy so angry... sad, yet funny. I've never been so happy to have a 3 day weekend. Yesterday I took it insanely easy. I did wash all our bedding/blankets/etc and cleaned our room. I read a bit and watched a couple movies with Rob. A very nice, relaxing day.
Today I got up kinda early, for a day off, started out VERY Slowly. washed by hair by 11am... played on the computer a while, then started getting slightly productive. I guess it's time to get back to that before the urge subsides and I veg instead.

Oh diary, forgive me for all my neglect, I will try to come back more often, if the hormones don't invade again and get me back in a funk....

Friday, November 6, 2009

When I'm super woman...

wow, what a couple weeks it's been!
I was sick for 2 weeks, then went to prompt care
and got NO care...
had to call the dr the next morning after deciding against
the ER, was fixed over the phone, put on
antibiotics and super steroids.
3 days later I felt human again.
Over a week later I finish the wicked coughing
the crud out of my lungs.
This week the steroids in the system hit their peak,
and WOW, I've been super woman!
The energy, the amount of stuff I have gotten done,
the people I have shocked and made laugh at work
when I couldn't stand still and was
running around like a total nut,
this will continue at least another week!
Next week is the last week on the stuff,
then I will be coming down from this 'high'
I hope I stay healthy and still motivated.

Time will tell!

Friday, October 16, 2009

Dear Diary, it's me, remember me?? It's been a long time...

Dear Diary,
do you even remember me?
I'm so terrible at keeping you in the loop :(

Wow, the last time I came to you was back in May.
Since then, Anna graduated, and now I have
2, yes

2 kids in college!
The year is just whizzing by.
Rob has only worked about 1/3 of this year.
My house, oh my poor house...
he gutted the bathroom and decided that
trying to 'clean' his office would be a
great project to start too..
my living room has been totally invaded...
my bathroom is a huge mess,
his office is still a disaster and
daily I fight for keeping the out of control
mess monster at bay, and I'm getting
very territorial.

I just finished 3 days of schooling for work.
Basic Shift Management, or BSM for short.
The class was pretty good but one of the 3 other girls at
my table was IMPOSSIBLE!
Miss Millie Mouth, yikes!!
I will be hearing "I have a question"

in rapid succession for years to come!
She's probably a really nice person but
I wanted to tape her compulsive
hand-raising arm to her side!

ah yes, life goes on. Christmas is coming fast!
In theory, I will be working Thanksgiving,
as I did not last year and did tell Mel I would
this year if we're open. We'll see!

This weekend I am going to catch up on much needed sleep
before resuming my normal life and work
schedules Monday.
I have a 4 day work week and couldn't be happier!!

Til next time dear diary,
I'll try not to let the dust build up on you again!!

Sunday, May 24, 2009

"Dear Diary"...

In this installment of this blog
(that I don't' know if anybody even reads or cares)
I will catch you up on the latest stuff that I have
so been neglecting you for.

At the end of April, I fell in the basement at work.
(the floor was very wet and the lights were off)
OK, I'm proof that work is VERY BAD FOR YOU!!

I fell very hard on my left knee. It swelled up instantly, and
was HUGE, with a giant water blob on my kneecap.
I couldn't bend my knee by the time I got home, and went to
the DR that afternoon.
Nothing broken or dislocated - yeah!
I bruised the kneecap pretty bad, and was told
it would be about 2 months to heal... yeah me....

The following day I had the most incredible bruising EVERYWHERE,
my knee and a good part of my leg too.
I am pretty well healed from that incident tho I
can't kneel down on it yet even on super cushy stuff.

Shanna is on her way home from Florida with Jenny and
her family, they tried to have a good time,
but it rained on them pretty much non-stop.
They're pretty water-logged.

Anna is at my moms until tomorrow night after the cookout.
She went to a murder mystery dinner last night,
all dressed up nice, she cleans up just AWESOME!
My baby girl is graduating this coming Friday,
can that be possible???

Rob will be heading home from Doug's place up north,
sometime tomorrow, it's been so quiet here!
I love it, wish it would happen more often :)

I just got a call from my neighbor. His granddaughter
just had a heart attack at the age of 26.
She is doing ok but is still in intensive care til tomorrow
for sure. Pretty scary stuff!!!
Hard to believe that it's possible at that age.
I hope she is doing much better tomorrow and
that her long term prognosis is a good one.

I work tomorrow then head to my moms
if I'm feeling up to it.
I'm fighting a cold, and had a terrible
night last night, was up ALOT :(

Here's to a good week ahead!! (I can hope!)